Babii...pls..

Pls x delete me from ur life, u've already deleted me from ur fb, u've switched off ur handphone and house fone, it's already torturing me enough...i cldnt do anything ryt, pls..i just wish that u wld give me anotha chance. pls,i've left a few voicemail on ur hp, i wish u wld come back to me. nothing is more important than u,not even my life is more important. i wish u cld see that. pls..i realli beg u.

has our frenship ended?

Hmmm, 1week ago i scolded sw on something, i know i shouldn't have & i regret it very much now. it really wasn't worth it over something like that, esp now our frenship has gone into it's 12th year. time has gone so quickly, and i hope our frenship don't just end here.

why must it happen to me?

Why does it have to happen to me?? What did i do wrong to deserve this?? Don't i deserve something nice mah?? Why are you so cruel?? Why can't you let people go on holiday?? Maybe i should really forget about it, forget that i ever asked for such a request. I'd put my heart & soul into it, yet in the end..all i get back is a "no". Though it's very hard & suffering from heartache...i got to forget about it, forget that i ever hoped for it to really come true. Dream shattered cause of one ignorent person say "no".

Sunrise

Few more minutes before the sun rises over here. I wish i was watching it with you, but its ok..i can feel your heart watching it right beside mine. It's comfort to know how you feel, well not really good comfort if it's about sad things but atleast i'll know and i'll try to make it up to you. I love the tattoo design, but maybe could alter it a bit, how about changing the leaf-like design on the very top with a heart shape?? that's just what i'm thinking. but wow!! 1.5inch..hehe wonder what mummy would say about it. Holding Chucky in one arm whilst blogging with the other,wish Chucky was you instead..i would love your body warmth instead of his. Can't wait to have you in my arms..hug you tightly..Mmmm..right in these arm is where you should be..its a perfect fit (you in my arms)..just like a puzzle..i've found the last missing piece, YOU. Sorry i made you cry, fuhhh..i really don't mean it...please don't cry anymore..im sorry i hurt you that way..i wont die..atleast not till im at a very old age,with my greyish white hair & loosely fitted fake teeth..I Love You Babii

please believe me

So true of what the tarot card readings had to say, for your's..yeah we do have a small conflict but it will subside cause we love each other and for me..yeah i do doubt and its causing us a lot of heartache..but put all that behind us ok. Actually,why i wanted to blog today is cause of what you told me this morning.."that you're prepared for the worst outcome possible"..but please ler,i promise you already,you don't have to wait 8yrs..before you turn 30 is all im asking for..i promise.

I see that xiu mui mui's blog make me realise..i missed out on a lot of things oh, but dont worry babii..i'll make it up to you..just like the way i persuaded you to eat the bitter medicine. Babii,i know you don't like the taste of it,but what to do kan..it's for your own good babe. i'll make up for all the lost times and the times we argued and argued over useless things.I know all aspects i gotta try harder, and i know time is on my side to prove it.

I'm looking forward to the food that you gonna cook, i bet it's really yummy..can't wait to drink the soup that you put so much time into cooking. Can almost taste it le..ohh & breakfast..keke..just hope its not fried egg with too much salt on it..eeekkk..that dream..make me keep thinking of the salty egg =.=".. i aso got dream hehe..more like imagine..keke..u knw wht kan..and also watch cuddle together to watch scary movies..syok & shock..haha..

When i look at my hand, it's missing something..it's missing your hand that i should be holding..i love you Babii

Closeness of our hearts

I hear your voice on the other side of the phone, & all i have to do is just close my eyes then i could feel you right next to me. For the past two months, we've really grown as a couple. Less fights, though nowadays the fights that we have all arises cause of my insecurity, i've gotta let that go. I promise i would starting from now. Like you said, no point living & thinking of the past where all we got now is in front of us.

These few days have been down due to the cause of more rejection letters, but oh well..no people succeed first time trying, all must come with hardship & endurance, this is my period in time where i must conquer. I'm sorry it has made you think that our relationship is at jeopardy or its not stable, its completely the other way around. All that you've done for me i could feel it, i'm really grateful to have you come into my life, please stay there. You've given me all the assurance, you're the one that made me believe.

I must say, i feel completely helpless the fact that you're sick now & i couldn't be there to take care of you, do use your 6day holiday trip to recover ok. Close your eyes & i'll be there..never leave your side.

The closeness of our hearts would only grow stronger by each day, no one has made me feel the way you do. By the way, the feeling of watching our first sunrise together is really meaningful, we've got more sunrises & sunsets to watch together. Watch your face start to have crows feet..haha nah, don't worry ok..no matter how you turn out to be in the future, i would always be with you (that includes no matter how your voice turns out to be)..take care of your sickness, i hope you gain your voice back soon. Miss & Love You Babii

busy-bodies

Have you ever had a feeling that your relatives (yes you heard me right,my relatives..my dad's side as well..) is trying to ruin your life?? well to them,its so called advise to the younger generation, but to me its just them trying to stick their nose into someone else's business. Yeah, im your niece & your my uncle, so i respect you in giving your advise to me, i'll listen but wont completely.

You might think my parents was the ones that suggested to my relative that he talked to me about it,but you're wrong..its him that busy-body & geh poh my stuff. Yes, people say that you should always respect your elder & their advise is worth listening to, but times have changed lar..not all their advise that they give is suited in the situations faced by the younger generations of today and tomorrow. I admit i am stubborn at times (my baby knows that of me very well..), and thinks that only my solution is the best (only when you really have pissed me off & keep badgering me about how good your's is & etc), now i see otherwise..i look for other people's opinions especially my baby's to see what they would do if in my situation, most importantly though, i don't need someone that just decides to step in and tell me what to do without me asking for his/her advise or opinion...*kindly acknowledges with a smile (yet secretly feel like telling you to mind your own bloody business).

Well anyway, this relative have decided to ruin my birthday by telling me on the night of my big-day that he wants to talk to me alone and that was through the phone when my dad called him to ask about qing ming..(thanks for ruining the rest of my night yah..), anyway i digressed...i was like "ok,yeah whatever..bring it.." (wasn't in the mood already..), then something hit me, thinking to myself.."talk to me alone"?? so you could just say stuff and that i have to accept it cause you're the elder, and so i have no chance to defend myself?? Hah!! good luck trying, no offence to people, but my mind has been made up, talk all you want..i'll listen but it'll just go in one ear and come out the other. Oh and need to remind myself to bring a pail, so i could catch the cold water that he decides to pour on me or maybe just an umbrella would do. Anyway he said he's going to call me later before dinner time to see when it could be done. Wouldn't mind it being at a coffee shop, so atleast i could fix my eyes on other passer-by whilst listen to him yapping away.

Would post about the outcome of the "meet up" after it happens. Do wish me luck. P/s: Im old enough to make my own rational decisions...

its been..hmm...9mths!!

Yes,it's been 9mths since i last blogged. A lot has happened since then, but the most notible thing is that i'm in a rs now, love being with my babii. Didn't went without arguements, misunderstand,lack of trust & what not that you get in a rs, endured a lot of..hmm..how to say it..hardship ain't the word..but yeah you get what i mean right. All in all, its worth it cause it bought so much happiness. Who says i cant make it huh, *showing my fist to the bast@rd & bi@tch that said it..*in ur face!! ok i'm not here to prove i'm better or what, but i know me & my babii could endure whatever that comes into our face. we have full trust & confidence in each other. our journey just started & has a long way more to go, but i'm sure we'll make it through.